I’ve been doing some thinking and i can definitely see how this blog is hindering my spiritual growth, and how it also stirs up my BPD. But it’s what i use to cope with my BPD aswell.. so it’s hard. I think it will be good when i go to Sri Lanka in June because i will be spending alot less time on here.. and when i get home in July i think i will decide if i want to keep this blog or not. There are definitely some perks to having this blog, but over all it’s very emotionally draining. I really just need to look after myself more and take better care of my mental health.